ONE YEAR ON FROM SURGERY
Today has been tough, not just the hard session on the velodrome, not that this time last year I had come out of surgery and was lying not able to stand. Left lying there I had everything to look forward to and strive for both on and off the bike.
The hardest thing today which I can not get out of my mind no matter how hard I try is this 8mm.. It has been a few weeks now since I found out about the re growth and the 8mm of hope I have.
As I went round the velodrome the thought crept into my mind and on the drive home it hit me. It hit me how much I love what I do and am so grateful for this 8mm. However as I close my eyes tonight I am also more scared than I have ever been. I am scared as I know no matter how hard I train this can all be taken away from me when I go to see my surgeon in March. I know I should not worry about it, but I can not help it, I know March is ages away and till then I will love everyday of my life and I hope I can get the worry out of my mind.
I have been overwhelmed from the support and have read every email and also thank you for all the tips people send, I am trying them all..... Sorry if I have not managed to reply to each email, training has been hard and to be honest I have been struggling knowing that I face more surgery. I have found myself waking up at 3/4am and all I can think about is walking through those surgery doors again and then cry myself back to sleep....
This 8mm fight is going be a hard one and it means the world to have so much support and I will give it everything to make the World Champs in March.....
What is your Gratitude list this week?
1. Having so many amazing people in my life who support me through
2. Having my sight so I can see how beautiful the world is
3. Having my hearing so I can listen to music